My best friend since we were about 5 years old passed back in 2008. The best thing I have been able to do it talk with other friends about the good times and some of the not so good times. It will be 5 years this may and I still think about him everyday.
He was as close to me as any of my family members. We were each others best man in our weddings. He is missed everyday. I hope you don't turn to the bottle it will only ruin you.